We're so sorry you went through this experience. Please know that it is absolutely not your fault, and that there are ways to overcome this.
Our services revolve around somatic work, which means that a lot of what we do mainly involves touch and tuning into sensations in the body. This may not be suitable for someone who has unresolved sexual trauma; because this kind of work may be too triggering or too overwhelming for your nervous system at this stage.
Before working with a somatic sexologist, it's important to first take the time to process your experience with a specialized trauma therapist.
If you're in Egypt, we highly recommend Sara Aziz and Mariam Nader, as well as the therapists working with SAFE Egypt.
The journey back home to pleasure is possible, and it starts by working on regaining a sense of safety in your body.